Meeting a terror PROFESSOR !

   Yeah right !! I just started my serious week as a college student . Well , kinda boring at the first week because there was only 2 to 3 professors that come and meet us . Traditionally first week is the adjustment area where we do nothing but full of introductions. But now that the 3rd week of school is coming along , where facing some strict rules and regulations already.

   (>__<) HUH !! We just met 2 terror professor that gonna ruin our college life . Uwaaah !! ( O.A ) Not that exaggerated but I guess they might be ?? Rumors from the higher years advice us to be more grade conscious for there are some prof's who really gives so low grades . Now , we met this prof who was said as a terror one. 1 minute passed  and nothing happened but after 3 hours of that eencounter . We feel that we already can't breath . It is because of those so many requirements and indeed , it was not jost requirements but so , so hard requirements . He's very strict in time , or in attendance and in the proper attire . His house rules are so uuuurgh !!

   Pray for me people . I might get 3 on my card and I don't want that . I'm DESPERATELY having some troubles now but I'm gonna cope up with all this adjustment in my college life . Hey , hey !! Gonna blog all the happenings SO WATCH OUT !!!

First Day in College

    My first day in College ?? Quite exciting . There were butterflies on my stomach and I can't sleep the day before it . I'm entering the Polytechnic University of the Philippines , a state University in the Philippines as a college student now . ( ^_^)/ I'm very much excited to meet other people specially my block mates and seniors which I already met through facebook. Facebooking really help me to connect and enjoy chatting with my future and now present blockmates. Although our class starts too late ( June 19 ) at least we already knew each other and expect that our first day would not be too boring .

a photo after our lunch with new college friends

        Our schedule time is not that hectic so we were not at the "HAGARDNESS" stage for now . By the way if I had some time I'll try to upload my schedule here. I'm taking PNR (  Philippine National Railways ) as my way of commuting but luckily , sarcastically speaking , that deym PNR left me. So what do I expect . I'M LATE ON MY FIRST DAY ! WATTA ! So lucky because when I arrived , our professor is not yet in and he's late also. Some introduction to our subjects and so on . There was some changes in our curriculum that made us yield ! One of our subject was change and now , we are the first batch who will be learning 4 languages ( Mandarin , Spanish , French , Nihongo ) in our Foreign Language class  (^o^) and that was fantastic !!


     We do election of the class officers after introducing ourselves one by one in front . We are 55 in all!
My known friends in facebook won the highest position and I'm happy for them . Me ?? na'ah !! I don't wann ashoukder any responsibilities for now . I just wanna focus on my studies and take life serious for now on !
We took our break time and then back to our class room.



     Everything went well on m first day and I'm very happy to meet my block mates , the person whom I will be at the nest 4 years to come . GOD BLESS TO US AND MAY THE POWER OF GOD GUIDE US ON OUR STUDIES .

One Short Love story

 FORBIDDEN LOVE .

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I am a girl who see's the world transparent. I look at it with my two eyes wide open .

I am a girl who learn to see the world as dark as it can be. I was a girl who discovers the d*mn part of life . 

The world , the life . They are so unfair .

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I am a boy who see's the world at it's worst. I look at it with my eyes closed but my heart open . 

I am a boy who learns to see the brighter side of the world . I was a boy who discovers the beuty beyond my dark world.

The world rotates . The life has its own cycle  though , they are both unfair !!

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I saw a girl sitting by the road. Her teary eyes caught my attention . Her angelic face , magnets my eyes . Her aura pulls my heart down .This undefined feeling leads me to a conclusion that in a glance I knew I fell inlove with this strange beautiful creature.

I stared at her almost an hour . Never took my eyes away from her. Never waste time to look at her . 

A man came to her direction . Gets her hand up then rapidly pulls her . I saw her looking at me . Her eyes was full of unknown burden . I saw the sadness and the pain in her . I just saw an angel in mournful situation . I don't know what to feel , what to do ! I wanted to run and be her hero but I just can't . 

That girl that I saw was really an angel. She's to high to reach . She's beyond my world. That girlis my fantasy. A fantasy of mine that I know will never come true. 

I still find ways to stole some glimpse of her. I still find tricks to See her beautiful face. II just can't control myself. Hence of my situation . Hence of this d*mn status in life. I still want to see my star. My moon . My life .

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I knew this boy . This pathetic boy who always peeps on my window. This boy who always looks at me from a distance.  This  boy whom I wish to be my savior , This boy who stole my heart . 

Every night I dream of him . Wishing and begging God to give him the strenght to save me . Every morning is a new hope . I always have faith .

And yes , I the girl from the mansion , the girl from a far , the heir of a powerful family fell inlove with a stranger . 

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Finally I get the chance to talk to her . Laugh with her . 

This day of committed sin was the best day for me . I was delighted and a spark of bright light appears in my life . There's a brighter side of the world waiting for me with this angel beside me .Yes , this angel beside me brought the hope. He took all in me,everything, but thank God  he left one girl who means everything to me. 

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I committed a sin , but I committed it happy . For the first time in myy life , I got the chance to laugh , to love . For the first time in my life I'm free. For the first time in my life I'm happy . It's all because of him . That boy made me complete . He really made me complete .

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" SLAAAP "

"starting today you are not allowed to go out of this house without my permission . I will not allow that idiot to see you anymore. I won't allow your f***'n relation go deeper .. Don't you ever forget Agatha , you are into marry Andrew. Don't even dare to refuse or else your boy will suffer "

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We fight for our love . We fight for our relation . But who am I , a poor guy who have nothing to give to my angel. A poor guy who can't promise anything but love. What a world ! ! 

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I will never surrender . This is my chance to have my freedom . I will never give up. My life , my love , my boy , I will always fight for him .

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Yes , she did it ! She did not give up , she did not surrender . I'm the one who looses the game. I'm affraid to take away everuthing from her. I'm afraid she might looe all that she have now just because of me . I failed. I surrender . 

But before I leave I made a deal with her parents beefore I give my angel back to them . 

" Here's my life , my angel . I'm giving her back to you. I don't wan't her to be hurt . I don't wanna see tears rolling down her face . Take good care of her . Let';s make a deal before I go. !! "

" then what was it ?? proove your worth of our daughter ! proove it then I will allow hr to marry you "

" Yah , that was exactly what i wanted to say ! someday I will return . I will comeback for my angel . That day , I will stand in front of you , chin up and I'll ensure you that I already have everything ."

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Why ? why ? why ?

why did hee go ? where did he go ? 

who can answer my quetions ? ... tears are rushing . They fall faster than ever from my eyes .

I can't bare the pain anymore. I can't !

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I work hard . Study hard . Live hard .

I did everything . I suffer with pain and loneliness.

I'm longing and misssing my angel but this is all for her .

** Almost 6 years of living life as hard as it can be . I finally got something .

I got the diploma and the degree . I got the companyu ang the postion .

I got money and power . But I still don't have everything when I don't have my angel.

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I search and search and search for my Agatha . .

through 1 year of investigation of the long lost daughter of the most powerful family last 6 years ago .

I found myself standing infront of a tomb .

CONFUSED .

FRUSTRATED .

MISSING .

LONGING .

I don't know what to do . My face has no expression . My hands and knees are shaking .

My lips want's to speak but there's no word coming out . 

I didn't notice those tears running down my face . 

"Agatha my angel . Agatha my angel . "

I fell down . I can't control myself anymore .

An old woman come infront of me holding a letter

" Last 6 years ago ,  Mr. and Ms. Hormes gave this to me with 100 , 000 thousand pesos , They instructed me that whenever  I saw a man come here and see him crying as if he's not a man . I should give this letter to him "

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the letter says ,

Mom / Dad ,

    For how many years I live the way you wanted me to live . I followed what you wanted me to follow. I never have the chance to be happy . I never got the chance to be complete . Until then I meet Arthur . An idiot ,pathetic and poor boy who gives me everything you failed to give me. He gives me joy . He draw the smile in my face . He gives me love . He gives me a baby . 

   Mom / Dad , I love you so much . Please tell Arthur that I'm fine and happy now. Please don't tell him this . Please tell him I loved hem so much . Tell him that I'm the luckiest girl in the world when I met him .

   Bye mom and dad . I love you so .

                                       

--- Agatha

Smart Decision Making

    Decision making is a hard task to do. You need to think of it once or twice, better yet thrice ! We all need to be smart in making our decisions . People get confuse sometimes and the outcome are not good.


    I am a teenager and yes , I'm having a hard time coming up on my decisions. I just think of it once then everything is okay but the its not okay after all. I don't waste time giving importance into choosing my decision so I always end messed up. Well I have this crazy minds and crazy thought that control my actions so I can't blame my self . mwahahaha , I'm just trying everything life offers me ! ( anu daw ?? haha)

    Like for example blogging . When I first blog I really love it . I've been active for a couple of months then after that I get tired of it . Well , try another one like online part time job hunting . I wasted lots of my time here and then get bored.  I can say that I am so moooooodyy . as in MOODY .Sometimes i thought that I'm a bipolar person ! harhar. But well , I can be as prrofessional as I can and pretend that I'm genius but then I can't do that for a long time because I get sick of it . I am easily to disturb and to be interrupt.  So I am loosing my focus on one thing.

  I getting out of the topic. Anyways, in connection to that , in short I am so trying hard in making decisions like what I want or what I need to do. I will decide this and later I will choose another one . haaaaist what unpredictable attitude I have. I'm tired and sick of this . I can't really stick to one interest.