what I mean is " I'M SORRY"

I wanted to escape the past

the memories that crushed.

I wanted to turn back fast,

and just forget that trash!

I made my heart a numb,

even if I looked dumb.

I hide on my poker face,

I erases all that trace,

But still your mark gives pain,

because it actually remains.

Still I can't hide what's true,

that I am missing you.

2 long years we been through,

I always do , searching you !

I wanted to bring back yesterday,

wishes that it was today.

But how can I do ??

if I'm doing this without you !

I'm just asking for one clue ,

Am I forgotten , or be forgiven by you ??

--- I dedicate this to my friend. A friend who were there for 2 long years, 

but now we are separated by conflict and misunderstanding.

I misses her a lot :((